farewell, love
unsent love letter.
The reason I liked you is because you’re you,
and who you are is someone who leaves.- Hae Sung, Past Lives (2023)
The moment you walked past that door and our eyes met for the very first time, there was a part of me that recognized you. The more I saw you, the more I knew you, the stronger that resonance grew. Sometimes I wondered, did you feel it too?
And countless times, I was convinced you didn’t.
Perhaps I made you up inside my mind, weaving stories that never were. Maybe I mistook your kindness for love. Yet, the authenticity of your tenderness, without ulterior motives, made me love you more. It feels so strange how the more my heart breaks, the more I fall in love with you —
You’re like a soft rain on a scorching summer day, so easy to love that it’s difficult not to.
Maybe for reasons we can’t explain, we meet people and know we were meant to love them, even if it’s just for a little while.
We may not love them forever or stay with them, but a part of us will always be tethered to them—
As I know, a part of me will always be tethered to you.
It’s time for me to move on, to close this chapter. As much I love to love you, my beloved, I will not torture myself with delusions and false hope.
And unmade promises are never broken, are they?
Thank you for walking into my life. Thank you for showing me how beautiful and merciful love can be. Thank you for showing me how to be brave, that bravery isn’t about being a fearless, undefeated hero — it’s as simple as showing up every day, despite our fears telling us to hide. I hope someday I can be brave, just like you are.
Thank you for seeing the better parts of me, amidst my flaws and mistakes.
Forgive me for not being as kind and thoughtful as you have been to me.
I’ll forever be grateful to fate for letting our paths crossed each other, for giving me a chance to know you — to feel the gentleness of your very being.
Thank you for everything.
Farewell, love.
